Living and learning.

I must have been over this a thousand times by now. Please inform me if you guys are getting sick of it. I am getting ready to get over him, but realize that I cannot forget him. He doesn’t want to talk to me, and I really just need him as a friend. I really want him to be a friend, but he seems oblivious to this.
Any good tips? I don’t want to do this forever, yet it seems like every time I let go a little, I end up getting hurt. Whenever I fall in love, I get my heart broken. I wanna be the boss of my own life!
Help?!
xxxx Betty!