Say hello to my little friend

Have you noticed that when people talk about sex, it’s always great. Always. And you feel like a complete idiot because you know that it doesn’t always work that way? Does this sound familiar? You are not alone.

I am going to admit something I have never told a soul. Until yesterday. I have never had a clitoral orgasm with a boy. In fact, the only way I have experienced one is with the though of my little friend. This is not something you want to brag about. And as a woman, I would never say it to my mate. This doesn’t mean I am faking it. When he goes down on me, I love it. It feels really good and I wouldn’t change it for anything. Yet, I do not climax. I have never told anybody because I am afraid of hurting his feelings. I can only imagine how I would reacted if I discovered that I couldn’t make my partner climax. That would be a serious damage to my self confidence. Also, I haven’t told anybody because secretly I do not want to be that vulnerable in front of somebody else. Anyway, I have a lot of small reasons I tell myself to make it sound better. Of course, I have no excuse.

Yesterday, F and I lay in his bed and he asked me about how things work with me. I hesitated, then I told him that I have never reached orgasm without an electric toy. It was pretty embarrassing for me to say it. And obviously, he did not like to hear it. He was glad that I told him, but his first reaction was (obviously) that his manly self esteem was hurt.

We talked it through. He had some trouble performing in the evening. We re-talked it over. I want him to be a part of it. He think he is ready. We did it again this morning. It was tender and quite nice. I really have the best boyfriend ever.

Love Mandy

All you need is love

I am so freaking madly in love. I go through my days flying on this pink crazy cloud called love. I have spent the night at F’s place. We went there after work. We, or mostly he since I do not have the keys and because he’s the boss’ son, closed up the restaurant and walked home to his apartment. We showered, separately and went to bed. I really love to be with him. We hold each other, talk, laugh, giggle about silly stuff and make out. I know this sounds cliché and me saying it sounds cliché sounds cliché, but it feels so right. I know that according to his parents belief, what we have done should qualify both of us to a v.i.p lounge in hell. If there ever was any doubt about that, we pretty much crossed that line last night.

I do not remember how, but once during the night, I turned my back to him and we were laying in the spoon position. He was kissing my neck and began to caress my breasts. Then, he started kissing my ear. This might sound a little weird, but I go completely crazy whenever somebody gives my ears that kind of attention. It really turns me on. At this point we both were breathing heavily and I reached the point where I just give up on trying to have any control at all. I reached out to his hip, caressed his back and rubbed my butt against him. I turned my head and kissed him and he put his hand between my legs. What surprised me is that he found my clitoris right the way. Maybe this tells more about my previous boyfriends than anything else. Anyway, we got to second base. It was great. I moaned. I came.

Afterwards, licked and kisses every inch of his body from the neck down to his navel. He moans. I enjoy to see how he reacts to my touches and that also makes me want to do more of it. From his navel, I went down on him. I did not feel as lost an insecure as I have felt until now when I did it on boy for example. This just felt great. I enjoyed it very much. I would love to do it again some time soon. Anyway, he actually stopped me before he came. I do not know why. He told me I was dangerous. It maintains a mystery to me.

However, it was a great night. Didn’t get much sleep though…

Love Mandy

The few seconds we work sooo hard for…

Boy once said to me that he thought women had much stronger orgasms than men ever could experience. I doubt and hope for all the men out there that it is not that way. However, women are able to have multi orgasms, both vaginal and clitoral. The vaginal ones are said to be less intense than the ones which comes from stimulation of clitoris. Before the afterglows of this amazing feeling end, I will try to describe the female clitoral orgasm as I experience it. It starts by stimulating (touching, rubbing) the clitoris. I have to say, it sometimes takes a lot. For a long time, I thought I had experienced an orgasm, but in real life, I was just on the stage just before one. To sum up, it might take time to get there. Before the orgasm, I feel the need of being penetrated. It is nearly an urge. It is like I really want to feel a man’s penis deep inside me. With more stimulation, my heart starts beating quite fast. I breath faster and I start to moan. When the orgasm is about to set in, it starts as a heat, or a bliss spreading from my clitoris. It quickly overwhelms my whole body. It is like all that exists is my clitoris. I am the clitoris, all of it. This feeling is so good that I usually cannot help myself but moaning out loud. After the climax, I can feel my vagina’s contractions and fast afterwards, my clitoris gets really sensitive and I want all stimulation of it to stop. I have to use a few minutes to gather myself as the afterglow of the heat still is in my body. When I am finished, I do not know why, but I have to pee.  My legs and arms are usually quite numb at this moment, just like I would be after a great physical effort. It might be caused by the huge amount of energy going through my body. After climax, I do not want to have sex at all. I want to take a rest. Not necessarily sleep. Just having a time out.

Love Mandy

Iris

I haven’t posted in a while. The reason is partly because of my up coming exams, but also because I have got myself a new toy. For those who has followed this blog a while, you know that I live away from my boyfriend and that we don’t really see each other that often. Females also are sexual creatures and I hope this does’t come as a surprise, girls do it too. Even though we don’t really talk about it. Anyway, I have tested a pleasure object named Iris from the Swedish producer LELO. LELO make exclusive and quite expensive sex toys, but you really get what you are paying for. It doesn’t make a lot of noise and it has five different levels of vibration with another five different programs. I have no better description than to say it is great. Having an orgasm is so easy and I have had some of the strongest ones in my life. We are talking seeing stars, the whole body turns into gelly, the neighbours leave post-it notes where they ask if I can keep it low. The last one is a joke 😛 but you get the point.

 

Love Mandy

 

 

Ps. For more information about my new friend : www.lelo.com