Have I been a bad girl?

Lately I have been having a lot of sex. A lot. At least twice a day. Sometimes more. Sometimes several times before we hit the sac. And than again in the morning before we get up or in the shower. I have told him one of my darkest secrets and he has told me about his first and second wet dream. Which both were really sweet. Yet he thought they are embarrassing, so I won’t kiss and tell. What I can do is tell you about my first fantasy, which really is embarrassing. I have already told F and yes, he thought is was kind of bad too. It is. I know. It is sort of a daddy complex and that explains so much of why I have had some issues whenever I felt I was disapointing the male authority persons in my life. I have had this fantasy for a long time and I guess I still have it in me.

It is an older man who, for a reason I ignore, take an interest in me. He is a authority person. Sometimes I work for him, sometimes he is a sort of teacher or just an older and more experienced male. Anyway, he is strong and quite dominant. He comes into my room late at night and tells me to take off my clothes. I am a little afraid of him, but at the same time, I know I have to do what he says, or I’ll get in trouble. When I am completely naked, he starts toughing me and telling me what he will do with me down to the smallest detail. This really turns me on. He says I am going to be his for some time and that he will teach me how to satisfy him. Then he firmly says that if I do not do as he says right a way, he’ll punish me. Oh yeah, spanking. Then, he makes me giving him head and we make love all night.

I might have left the spanking part out because it is frankly quite weird. Well, not that it is anything wrong with it, but I do not like to admit it. I am a strong woman who has her life together, so it is quite embarrassing that my first fantasy was to be dominated in bed by an older dude. Anyway, he took it with a smile. Guess it wasn’t so bad telling after all.

 Love Mandy

Hit me baby one more time

I must admit that I have never fantasised about being spanked or submit corporal punishment. Nevertheless, sometimes I get slapped. This little game began about one and a half year ago. My boyfriend and I were fooling around in his bed as the horny teenagers we were and suddenly, he slaps my but. At this point, I was laying on him and we were kissing. Although it came quite surprising on me, it wasn’t depressant. Rather the opposite actually. After he has slapped my butt, I didn’t know how to react, so I just continued kissing him. When he did it again, I must have slipped out a little moan because he stopped and asked, maybe a little nervous, “Do you like it?”. I got a little perplex. I was a good girl and I could NOT admit that I liked getting my butt slapped. I wasn’t even sure if I liked it or if I just thought it was OK. After a little thought I just looked at him and noodled. It was quite OK after all. He smiled. One of those “I-am-deep-under-your-skin” smiles who only a really confident boy can smile.  

Why is this something which turn some boys on? I have tried to ask my boyfriend about this, but it is quite difficult to get a real answer. I guess it is scary to reveal the kinky fantasies you have to another human being in general, but I have never turned him down or said that I think he is weird. He may even don’t know why he enjoys it. I have talked to Betty about this and she has also experiences the same thing. Why does some boys like to slap their partner while they are doing it? Has this something to do with maledomination? Do they have to show that they are in control? It may be something like that, but I am not really sure. 

Love Mandy