He brought me coffee and a croissant!

I slept at D’s place last night. It seems like our time together is just filled with passion for one another. I enjoy it so much, and without further ado, i guess you could say he does too..

Last night he put on some nice, calm music and welcomed me with a kiss. Just coming in to the room made me feel so at home and turned on. He started kissing my neck and slowly emerged downwards. He kissed my shoulders gently and undressed me smoothly. I don’t usually just lie there, but last night I gave in to the passion of being passive. And man, it’s nice to be passive sometimes. Lieing there being fumbled with, being touched, being fucked gently and hard at the same time. MY GOD, that’s passion for me! ( I came twice, just for the record!!)

To put it mildly, I am not the typical morning person, I am pretty sure my friends, and especially my roomie can vouch for that. I heard him leave this morning, and figured he was going to the bathroom or something. Then about 15 minutes later he comes home with coffee and croissants. This is probably one of the sweetest things you can do for a girl in the morning, bringing her coffee and breakfast. Needless to say, he is adorable and I am falling.

With kisses of coffee and a little croissant, a little bit of sunshine and with lots of love, Betty!!

Fuck!!!

So I am having such a great time with the guy who really likes me. Let’s call him D.

D and I have hooked up a couple of times this week, and he’s great. I feel so good when I’m with him, and I can really relax and just be myself. I think I’m falling, but know it’s stupid and that I shouldn’t. We watch movies, and I sleep over. He tells me I seem older than I am and gives me compliments. I like it and I feel I’m attracted to him even though I don’t find him that good looking.

Last night, I went to this stripper party at a Co-op nearby. It was so much fun and I must say I enjoyed all the male strippers. And I guess I can’t stay away from guys with GF’s. Mr. GF was namely at this party.. And what do you think happen when Betty is drunk and a guy she has already hooked up with is interested in more? Oh well, we’ll see what happens there..

Going on a date tonight, or I don’t know if it’s a date, but we are gonna meet up at this bar none the less. Even so, I have no intentions of hooking up with him tonight (and what’s up with French guys and their stamina???)

XO Betty!

Having trouble sleeping

Co-worker, let’s just call him F from now on, has moved into his new apartment. He did it yesterday and he invited me over after work the same day. I accepted and the plan was that we shouldn’t watch any movies because in that way, I would be able to catch the last subway home. But it didn’t work out as I had planed. We watched a movie, talked, drank wine and before we had actually noticed anything, it was too late for me to go home. Since he has just one room in the apartment and also just one bed, be slept together that night. Anyways, we tried to sleep, but we stayed up talking for hours. We passed out in the same bed and nothing happened.

He hasn’t tried to make a move, not even once. It’s weird. Or no, it’s not. It probably just means that he is not interested. But if that’s the case, it’s really too bad. I like him a lot. He’s great. Really great and I have started to have some seriously erotic dreams about him. This is hard. That’s what she said!I think I am falling, crushing to the ground. On the same time, I keep getting these mixed signals, the looks, something that makes me think that he may just be shy, which I know he is.

By the way, he told me this morning that while I was asleep, I had had some trouble falling asleep because he’d forgot to eat. Suddenly, he thought something dead had fallen on his head, but when he looked closer, it was my hand. In my sleep I had just reached out and put my hand on his head. Charming…

Love Mandy

Hey there mr…

Oh, so you have a girlfriend, GREAT!!

Ok, so I have this problem, well actually I have two.. I ended up hooking up with Mr. GF! Mr. GF is from France, have a thick, sexy, french accent and is so adorable. I had met him before and found him attractive and liked hanging out with him, but I knew he had a GF and therefore I stayed away. His GF attended the same school as we do.. She was here on a research scholarship and went back home a couple of weeks ago.

Knowing all of this, I met him on Halloween, we were at the same party and had a lot of fun. The party ended up at the next-door frat and I ended up drinking (which I wasn’t supposed to since I was ill…) Mr. GF and I ended up sitting and chatting, and getting more and more drunk. I didn’t have any intentions, knowing what I did. After about an hour talking (or so, remember I was drunk, keeping head of time isn’t really my thing while drunk) he leans towards me, and kiss me…. Oh GOOOOOD!!! We ended up going home to his place, and I guess everyone can think of what happened next…

In the morning when I left he told me to add him on FB, which I didn’t do, and a couple of days later, he added me instead. I didn’t want to take the first step, because he has a GF and because I therefore don’t feel it’s right of me. That same day I got a message saying he had a great time with me, and he hoped to see me soon. Gave me his msn-adress and his phonenumber. I was stunned. Here I am, trying to get people to stay in touch, and when I do not expect it, nor really know how ethically right it is, I get contact… (The sex was great btw, there is something about boy which resently, or currently is in a relationship is so good in bed and know just the right things to do…)

What I’m asking you all, is: Is it right of me to stay in touch? Or should I just blow him off… Keep in mind I do really think he’s a sweet, nice guy, that I don’t want a BF and that I can see he’s being a jerk for doing this to his GF…

My other problem is…. Did I mention the guy on my floor liking me? The one I ended up kissing even though I only saw him as a friend? Well, I think I’m falling for him. I really enjoy spending time with him, and I caught myself flirting with him yesterday, and kinda wanted to kiss him (I WAS SOBER!!) I have no idea how to handle this as I have convinced myself (and everyone else for that matter) that he is only a friend, and that even though I know he fancies me, I didn’t want to do something with him.. I’m falling, I can feel it, and I don’t know how to handle it… Help me???

Looooove Betty Boop Boop Boop!!!

He gave me flowers

Yesterday I found flowers on my desk. Today, he is making me dinner. Again.

Love Mandy

Honey, I’m home!

Co-worker and I have been living together for about five days now and it’s going great. This is something I could absolutely live with. Even though I was afraid it was going to be weird, it’s not. Yesterday my parents were in town and we went to the theatre. Co-worker stayed at home to work on his philosophypaper. Then, we made pizza and sat on my bed watching old episodes of The Office (US). He’s great! He helps cooking, he makes tea, he does the dishes. Arghh… I’ll miss him…

One thing that isn’t so grat is that his father (my boss) has told him not to speak with me that much at work. Co-worker told me Friday. It wasn’t like I didn’t see it coming. I has my suspicions. I know this shouldn’t be bothering me, but it is. There is an perfect explanation:his father (my boss) is Muslim and even though he has lived here for 30 years, he still doesn’t want his kids to date someone white. I understand that. I really do, but I cannot help but taking it personally. I know my boss is quite fond of me. He has given me new responsibilities at work and I recently got a raise. He has also said in person that he was very glad to have me as an employee. I know I shouldn’t be reacting this way, but I get the feeling that I do a great job, yet, I am not good enough to date his son. And I will most likely never be simply because I am white and not Muslim. Sure I can be a good person, but I would have been a even better person if I were a Muslim. I am troubled… I think I have issues not being good enough…

Just for the record, co-worker doesn’t think that way. He is very Muslim light as he would never ask his girlfriend to convert to Islam. He also takes a glass of wine or scotch whenever he wants to, he never does Ramadan and he thinks religion should be something private. Because of his choice of living this way, he is not really on good therms with his parents. He moved out against their will and they don’t know that he is living at my place…

Love Mandy