He is just soooo gorgeous!!

Oh yeah, I did it again! I might have told you about the dance on last friday, well, long story short, I was drunk. Bottom line, me and my roomie thinks the same guy is superhot(which he is btw, really really gorgeous!). Well, to my story, this was the night of ultimate hook up and being shitfaced! Me, as I am usually not an exeption, was drunk too(not shitfaced, it didn’t get that far, I was too busy!!), well, we had this preparty, and ofcourse(well, let’s call him the german boy) the german boy was there, we hang with the same people so there wasn’t any big deal! Me and my roomie got drunk, as I have allready told ya, and he got more and more interested in talking to us, BOTH of us.. Confusing, well, as the girls we are we went to have a pep-talk in the restrooms. Topic? Which one of us should go for him, and which one of us does he want? We decided, as the idiots we are when drunk that he decides, I said, no bad feelings if he choose you, and she almost said the same thing back! Have you guess the outcome of this story yet? Well, off we go down to the real party, all 100+ of us! Packed auditorium, loads of people, loud music and cheap wine and beer. We danced, he danced, with us, with me, with her, and with me, then he kissed me! In my head: “SHIT, FUCK, SHIT, Oh god he is so hooooot!!!” Even longer story short, I went with him to his room, turned out he’s not just gorgeous, but he is so nice as well, problem now: kinda have some butterflies in my stomach whenever I see him, and hoping to see him wherever I go, I feel like I’m in this really bad soap-opera, cause everywhere I go, I meet him! Fancy that(does that EVER happen in real life??) We make eye-contact, a little flirting but nothing more, I really want something more, does anyone wanna give me some input on this one? I have no idea, I feel lost in my own little fantazy and I have no idea what to do except wait and flirt! HELP me!!!

Kiss kiss kiss (yes I wanna kiss him again!)

Betty!!

(btw, I just feel this is the most unmature post I have written in ages, I feel though, like I am 14 right now, and had a little hope in my mind that would go away as I grew older, but now it’s here again, even at my age!)

Forever friends?

Things are slowly evolving with my co-worker. At least I think they are. He has invited me over at his place tomorrow for late dinner and a movie. I finish school quite late. He also asked me which perfume I use and complimented it. Either he is gay (which I know i not the case), or he was flirting. Anyway, this time I have decided that I will not analyse the situation and try to find out weather it is a date or not. I will assume it is just a friend thing. On the other hand, he is going to cook for me! Arghh… I am so screwed…

Love Mandy

Falling in love again

I have been wondering, what make me fall in love with one particular person and not another? When it comes to this, I think I have had a pattern for the last few years. It scares me. Every time, the boy wanted to go out with me and since I did not really have anything else to do, I guess I thought something like “why not” and just went out with him. Then, things became more serious, I fell in love with him and we became a couple. But not necessarily in that order.

I have asked myself if I fall in love only because the guy is nice with me. I told this to a friend and she pointed out that it was better to fall in love with someone who actually is nice, rather than an asshole. That would be a bit sadomaso. But honestly, I do not fall in love with someone just because he shows interest in me. At the moment, I think I am falling in love with co-worker because of many things. He has the qualities I am looking for in a man: nice, we can talk about anything, funny, has a great smile, is handsome, intelligent, mature (this one is quite important), has no issues and he is all over a happy guy. Yesterday he came to the restaurant where I work. My boss (his father) was out and I had the responsibility for all of it. Anyway, we folded napkins and talked. Nothing else, but we are planing to go to the movies again and I help him in his French class at the University (oh… so romantic). I have experienced that working together and helping someone at school actually is a great way to get close to another person.

Love Mandy