The virgin…

Why is it that I always attract virgins?? I don’t really get it, but a lot of my ‘concers’ have been virgins! Why?

Well, to the real point. I have found an amazing guy, his name is E and I think we can be an item in the future. He is so adorable and keeps giving me compliments. Virgin, Oh yeah, and we still haven’t had sex. In a lot of ways, I kinda like taking things slow, and I know that he being a virgin will not be a problem, he knows what he’s doing, and in many ways, even though he has never actually _had sex_ he has fooled around before. I could not detect that he was a virgin, but I feel like a do have a good sence for those kinds of things. I am happy and looking forward to getting to know him better!!! He is a law student and will be done this semester (I do have a thing for older guys!!) I think I like him a lot, let’s see how things will work out!

XOXO from not so sunny anymore, California, Betty!!!

Damn…

I just realized that F and I never can break up. I mean, we have done so many things together that I love so if we ever break up, I must stop doing them and that would really suck. These are some of the things that will forever be associated with him:

1. The Office US (Ryan the sexy temp, Fire-guy, Jim&Pam, Dwight’s beet farm)
2. “That’s what she said” jokes
3. “Been there done that” jokes
4. Flight of the Conchords
5. Passolini
6. Derrida
7. Pakistan (obviously, his parents are from there)
8. My part time job (we work together)
9. My boss (his father)
10. Philosophy especially methaphysics (he is studying it, 4th year)
11. The area of town where he lives
12. Smoke (a cat we have seen several times in the park)
13. Sadistic films such as Salo, Funny games and the Anatomy of hell
14. Zombies
15. Squash and tennis (which we have been playing a lot together)
16. Ties from the seventies (I love the way he wears them!)
17. Espresso
18. Tea from Palais des thes
19. Tutter
20. Mango Lassi

I tried to say this as a joke to him, but it got kind of awkward. When I said “we can’t ever break up” as we were watching the office, he replied”do you want to break up?!?”. So I guess it’s the same with break-up jokes as hilarious aids jokes: they don’t exist. Oh… That’s another one that will for always be associated with F.

Love Mandy

What is love…

Some time has passed since I last posted anything here. Slightly cynical at the time I feel like the world is communicating more clearly to me again. After having a rather uncomfortable encounter with my ex over x-mas break, I feel like I can finally start all fresh. I am over him, and I have finally had the guts to tell him too. (even though not so harsh…)

I have left the time before christmas behind me, I am trying to forget D and sending nasty looks her way as a part of my mental path towards a slightly less cynical life. I feel like I deserve better and that people in general should learn to be more considerate towards each other in this already so cold world. Come to think of it, I have a great deal of potential myself! I am back from my winter wonderland, where everything is cold, but people is loving towards each other anyway.

I have come the conclusion that even though I really want and need sex, I can wait for a nice, cute guy to come to me. I don’t want to rush anything, in my silent mind I have decided I no longer want to be the attention of the gossip floating around my house. I no longer want to be the person people is wondering where slept last night and I no longer, for my own sake want to be the person who sleeps around to feel better!!

Even as clishe, inmatture and whatever you might think in your silent minds about me, I am a hopeless romantic and I want to find love. I don’t want to rush love, but I do want to find it. I want to find a guy that I can love, unconditionally for the rest of my life. A guy I am willing to have a long distance relationship with and a guy that loves me back the way that I love him. Is it really that much to ask? I am not asking for mr. perfect, I am not asking for a handsome, intelligent, funny and and and-guy, I am simply asking for someone who loves me for who I am, and that I love for who he is. Does he exist? Is it really that hard to find someone who wont dump you for another girl and make lame excuses on how it’s got _nothing_ to do with you, when it so clearly has got _everything_ to do with me!!! How did our parents ever find each other? How does people ever find each other?

XOXO from a slightly philosophical Betty!!