Not so bad after all

Yesterday sucked. High on the list over things which suck are situations where your ex, whom you are trying to be friends with again, makes allusions to his or hers sexlife. What sucks even harder is that I cannot say anything because then he will know that it is making me uncomfortable and I do not want to give him that satisfaction.

Luckily, my brown boyfriend’s dad (my boss, also called T) were there to save the day. When he asked me if I could work on Sunday (which is today) and I said yes, he hugged me! He is my Pakistani boss and he has never, ever hugged me. Moreover, I am not really a hugger I am way too shy,so I have never taken any initiative. F was standing right next to us. After T had gone, F and I had a moment. You know when you feel like dancing a dance of victory, but you can’t, so you just do a little dancing on the inside? It was one of those moments. I really think he likes me, which is good, since I am going to make his life hell by telling him that I am dating his son and that we are moving in together livin’ in sin.

Love Mandy

Does size matter, volume 2!

Size does not matter, IF the guy knows how to use it.
I have been with a number of men, and I have come to the conclusion that it is not neccessarily better when he is big, and not good when he is small. What really does matter, is his ability to use it properly, and do what makes me turned on.

Mandy, I am incapable of coming with clitoral stimulation, and I am sure there are girls out there like me. What is important for you guys to consider is that ALL GIRLS GET TURNED ON BY DIFFERENT THINGS! But when it comes to size, me personally really DON’T care. Do your best folks!

Does size matter?

That’s the Question. Does the size on his penis matters to womans’ sexual pleasure? It is, I have heard, a scary question to ask because men tend to identify with their genitals.

I have slept with three men. Or more like two boys and one man. Anyway, they naturally had different ways of reacting to physical contact and they were not built the same. In my opinion, average is perfect. I have experienced that if the guy is really big, he hardly react to anything but his penis. Everything turns around it and it can be pretty annoying when you try to give head and the only technique that seems to turn him on is sucking. I mean, it’s so much more fun when you can work him up in other ways, like licking him on the inside of his legs, the area between the anus and his balls, or just the head. I love it when I can bite his neck and he moans with pleasure. It really gives me confidence and makes me want to do other stuff. It ca also be because he knows he’s that big, he have never done any real effort to please a woman in bed, as the myth the bigger the better is out there. Just to make things clear, we usually come much harder from stimulation of the clitoris, and not the penetration itself. I can’t stress this enough.

Does it feels better during sex if he’s big? In my experience, not really. It’s more about how excited I am than his size. When I am extremely turned on and longing for having him inside me, the sex mostly is great. Mostly. South Park reference!

In conclusion, it’s all about how the girl is worked up, rather than size. It may be a cliché, but foreplay really makes the difference. And remember, we fall in love with a man, not a penis, even though it’s a package deal.  

Love Mandy

Stresss

It’s really serious. F and I are moving in together. We are going to see two potential apartments for rent tomorrow after my exam. Yes, coz I’ve an exam tomorrow. It’s a French option for law students so it shouldn’t be any trouble. What is trouble thought is my real 2nd yr law school exam in about one and a half month!

Anyhow I’ll just keep bloging. I mean, between the reading, I’ll always get some time to post.

Over to more interesting things, the sex with F is really starting to be good. It might be the fact that I am in a good place right now, but I also think it is because we have done it a lot. Let me explain. In Hot Sex by Tracey Cox, she points out that practice is the key to turn good sex into great sex. I really think that’s true. I mean sure it isn’t mind blowing every time. Like last night, it was only cosy and I didn’t exactly come, but that’s okay because the time before that, we did it on the sink and it really was mind blowing. To sum up, the more we sleep together, the better it becomes. Cheers!

Love Mandy

Yes, I can!

Today I managed to have an orgasm all by my self! This proves that it is possible. I can do it on my own. It might sound corny, but this is actually a hudge acomplissement. I never thought I was able to have one without my little friend. Youhoo!

Love Mandy

No quitter!

Yesterday someone searched using the sentence “should I quit”. It is something I have been thinking a lot of lately. F and I have planned to tell his parents about us. We have also thought about moving in together, something we are also going to tell them about. In a situation like that, I have two choices. I can either quit before we tell them so I won’t have to deal with their reaction, or I can stay and force them to interact with me. By staying, I am telling them that I am serious and that I am not afraid of what they might think or what the consequences might be. Actually, I am scared, but that is not the message I want to send. I want to make the point that I still want to be a part of the restaurant, even though I am dating their son. I am not courageous. I am terrified of how they are going to react, but I think it is the right thing to do. Moreover, in that way, F is not alone facing his parents. I think that might help him, because admitting that you are having a relationship with a white chick and having sex with her before marriage, to your Muslim parents who wants you to marry your Pakistani cousin, can be pretty ugly…

Love Mandy

Little mirror on the wall

Due to recent discussions between Betty and I whether one should be friends with the ex and the fact that I just learned that we can create a poll on wordpress, we now want to hear your opinion on the matter!

Love Mandy

Catching up

It has been a while since I have posted now. The reason? I’m having my finals coming up in May and I have much less time now as I am having a boyfriend. I am also trying to be more with my family to show them that I am not changing. It can be a little hard since they are not being very supportive. Anyhow, that is not really an issue I can make mine. I mean, they are the ones having a difficult time accepting I have a brown boyfriend, not me.

As far as ex-boyfriends go, I have dreamt a lot of them lately. Not Boy, but the first one who totally crushed my sweet sixteen heart. I am dreaming that he wants me back and I refuse because he kind of repulses me. Boy has actually talked to me and we have agreed to try to re-bond. I kind of like it. We have agreed that it was nice, but it is now too late and that it will not happen anything romantic between us ever again. That feels good. I have closure.

Love Mandy