Crossing over to the right side!

My little mind is confused!

I did mention D before x-mas, right? Well, my feelings for him continue, and even though I know we do not have a future and that he dumped me for another girl, I am still in love with him. I keep telling myself I am acting like a fool, continue to be in love with someone who dumped you seems so stupid, and at the same time, I can’t stop thinking about him. Or I couldn’t. This have changed slightly. As I have found the most amazing guy I have ever met, my feelings for D have cooled down. They are still there, but I do not think about him all the time anymore and it does not hurt doing things that remind me of him anymore.

Over to my real point. I have met an awesome guy. He is so nice to me and I think I will fall for him. It’s weird because in many ways he is exactly what I have been looking for for quite a while and it feels so good hanging out with him! He was a virgin when I met him, but for some reason I did not detect it. It’s like it all comes so natural for him, and we have pretty good sex already!

XOXO Betty!

My so non-existing sex-life!

It’s beginning to be so clear to me, that I miss having someone to cudle with, doesn’t even have to be sex, although some action in that area would be good to.

Although I do not like to admit it, I’m falling for the German guy. I don’t want to, and I know there will never be anything there, but I find myself looking for him when I walk past the Great Hall or other places I know he might be. The thing is, I can never find myself so utterly in love with him as I am in A back home, but it freaks me out that I was capable of finding someone I so utterly fall for. I find that everytime I see him, I just wanna jump on him and drag him into his room. And on his birthday, a couple of days ago he was so wasted and I walked him up to his room, yet I didn’t make a move, I know this is a good thing, and frankly, I’m not the kinda girl that will take advantages of those sceneries, but now, I wish I had made some kind of move, cause I really, really want him.

Most likely, nothing will happen ever again, we hooked up twice, so I guess that means something, but we had a chat and none of us want something serious, I guess that was the nail in the coffin.. Still, I don’t want it to be.. He gives me looks, and I give him looks back..

❤ from California, Betty!