My so non-existing sex-life!

It’s beginning to be so clear to me, that I miss having someone to cudle with, doesn’t even have to be sex, although some action in that area would be good to.

Although I do not like to admit it, I’m falling for the German guy. I don’t want to, and I know there will never be anything there, but I find myself looking for him when I walk past the Great Hall or other places I know he might be. The thing is, I can never find myself so utterly in love with him as I am in A back home, but it freaks me out that I was capable of finding someone I so utterly fall for. I find that everytime I see him, I just wanna jump on him and drag him into his room. And on his birthday, a couple of days ago he was so wasted and I walked him up to his room, yet I didn’t make a move, I know this is a good thing, and frankly, I’m not the kinda girl that will take advantages of those sceneries, but now, I wish I had made some kind of move, cause I really, really want him.

Most likely, nothing will happen ever again, we hooked up twice, so I guess that means something, but we had a chat and none of us want something serious, I guess that was the nail in the coffin.. Still, I don’t want it to be.. He gives me looks, and I give him looks back..

❤ from California, Betty!

He is just soooo gorgeous!!

Oh yeah, I did it again! I might have told you about the dance on last friday, well, long story short, I was drunk. Bottom line, me and my roomie thinks the same guy is superhot(which he is btw, really really gorgeous!). Well, to my story, this was the night of ultimate hook up and being shitfaced! Me, as I am usually not an exeption, was drunk too(not shitfaced, it didn’t get that far, I was too busy!!), well, we had this preparty, and ofcourse(well, let’s call him the german boy) the german boy was there, we hang with the same people so there wasn’t any big deal! Me and my roomie got drunk, as I have allready told ya, and he got more and more interested in talking to us, BOTH of us.. Confusing, well, as the girls we are we went to have a pep-talk in the restrooms. Topic? Which one of us should go for him, and which one of us does he want? We decided, as the idiots we are when drunk that he decides, I said, no bad feelings if he choose you, and she almost said the same thing back! Have you guess the outcome of this story yet? Well, off we go down to the real party, all 100+ of us! Packed auditorium, loads of people, loud music and cheap wine and beer. We danced, he danced, with us, with me, with her, and with me, then he kissed me! In my head: “SHIT, FUCK, SHIT, Oh god he is so hooooot!!!” Even longer story short, I went with him to his room, turned out he’s not just gorgeous, but he is so nice as well, problem now: kinda have some butterflies in my stomach whenever I see him, and hoping to see him wherever I go, I feel like I’m in this really bad soap-opera, cause everywhere I go, I meet him! Fancy that(does that EVER happen in real life??) We make eye-contact, a little flirting but nothing more, I really want something more, does anyone wanna give me some input on this one? I have no idea, I feel lost in my own little fantazy and I have no idea what to do except wait and flirt! HELP me!!!

Kiss kiss kiss (yes I wanna kiss him again!)

Betty!!

(btw, I just feel this is the most unmature post I have written in ages, I feel though, like I am 14 right now, and had a little hope in my mind that would go away as I grew older, but now it’s here again, even at my age!)