Crossing over to the right side!

My little mind is confused!

I did mention D before x-mas, right? Well, my feelings for him continue, and even though I know we do not have a future and that he dumped me for another girl, I am still in love with him. I keep telling myself I am acting like a fool, continue to be in love with someone who dumped you seems so stupid, and at the same time, I can’t stop thinking about him. Or I couldn’t. This have changed slightly. As I have found the most amazing guy I have ever met, my feelings for D have cooled down. They are still there, but I do not think about him all the time anymore and it does not hurt doing things that remind me of him anymore.

Over to my real point. I have met an awesome guy. He is so nice to me and I think I will fall for him. It’s weird because in many ways he is exactly what I have been looking for for quite a while and it feels so good hanging out with him! He was a virgin when I met him, but for some reason I did not detect it. It’s like it all comes so natural for him, and we have pretty good sex already!

XOXO Betty!

The L-word

So… It has been said. One night. We were wrapped up in each others’ arms. We were kissing and he said it.

“I love you”

Three little words. Just like that. So easy. Natural.

I guess I looked a little surprised because he repeated it. Smiled and hugged me. A lot of things went through my head. I do not have issues with these words. Not anymore. Everything felt right. I want it so bad. Yet, it was maybe too soon. Aren’t there rules for this? According to some religious and cultural rules, we shouldn’t even be doing what we were doing, so I decided to screw the rules. Normal is the watchword.

“I love you too”

There. It’s said. I’m vulnerable again.

Love Mandy

I want my buddy’s girlfriend…

Yes Mandy.. To have a girlfriend would be so much easier than having a boyfriend, and with todays technology, nothing is impossible (you mentioned penises.. STRAP ON BABY!)

Well, there are a lot of advantages of having a girlfriend (I would think), like Mandy has allready mentioned the communication will probably improve and also the timing of the sex.. Watching football, no way!! Sex, please baby!! Although I think this could be exciting, and somewhat easier to live with, there are a lot of issues you will meet with a girl that you will not have with a boy.. Being with a person from another sex is exciting JUST BECAUSE there are so many differences. Just because you don’t understand them, you cannot talk about everything with them, and most of all because you can be mad about him playing WOW or watching football (which girl doesn’t like a good fight??).. Girls, we can’t live with them, but even more important, we cannot live without them.. Those weird creatures from Mars..

XOXO Betty!!

Hit me baby one more time

I must admit that I have never fantasised about being spanked or submit corporal punishment. Nevertheless, sometimes I get slapped. This little game began about one and a half year ago. My boyfriend and I were fooling around in his bed as the horny teenagers we were and suddenly, he slaps my but. At this point, I was laying on him and we were kissing. Although it came quite surprising on me, it wasn’t depressant. Rather the opposite actually. After he has slapped my butt, I didn’t know how to react, so I just continued kissing him. When he did it again, I must have slipped out a little moan because he stopped and asked, maybe a little nervous, “Do you like it?”. I got a little perplex. I was a good girl and I could NOT admit that I liked getting my butt slapped. I wasn’t even sure if I liked it or if I just thought it was OK. After a little thought I just looked at him and noodled. It was quite OK after all. He smiled. One of those “I-am-deep-under-your-skin” smiles who only a really confident boy can smile.  

Why is this something which turn some boys on? I have tried to ask my boyfriend about this, but it is quite difficult to get a real answer. I guess it is scary to reveal the kinky fantasies you have to another human being in general, but I have never turned him down or said that I think he is weird. He may even don’t know why he enjoys it. I have talked to Betty about this and she has also experiences the same thing. Why does some boys like to slap their partner while they are doing it? Has this something to do with maledomination? Do they have to show that they are in control? It may be something like that, but I am not really sure. 

Love Mandy