It hurts to say goodbye!

For the last 4 months, I have had the most amazing, beautiful boyfriend I could ever imagine. He has so many qualities that I look for in a man, and I have felt priviledge to have him. At the same time, he is all the things that I am not. He is funny and popular, social and likeable. With him as a boyfriend, I feel like I have had some of the things that I have longed for all my life.
But it must come to an end. It always has to. In 13 days, he leaves back to his country, and I will have a kiss on my lips to remind me of him. But I fear it. Most of all, I am not done with him, and do not want to lose him. But also, I don’t want to be single. I am so afraid I might never find anyone like him ever again, but I can’t get myself to tell him how much he means to me, and he jokes it off everytime I try to tell him a little piece of how I’m feeling. I think I might love him, or I’m in the process of loving him, but I just can’t tell him because I know he does not feel the same, and I don’t want him to feel bad!
Right now however, I am unable to sleep, consentrate or eat properly, and all I want is to spend time with him. He wants to have fun with his other friends as well, and I respect that, and understand that, but I just want to spend every second of the day near him, because I know that I might see him for the last time in 13 day… And that’s breaking my heart!

Betty…